there are some things that i refuse to change about myself because they're "typical loucke." i want to see friends years from now and be familiar.
miss tech pageant: easily one of the best things you could ever attend at louisiana tech
i actually like baton rouge.
i've already become almost completely absorbed
with the internet. and the tv.
it's ridiculous really...how boring benton is.
how lame i get when i come home.
i wish i had some friends here.
and money would be nice too.
anything that could get me out of the house for any period of time.
perhaps later this week i'll get a book from the library
and spend the day at a coffee shop or in the park to read.
another thing i'm excited about,
and have been excited about since this blog began...
cooking.
my sources for inspiration are as follows.
- the pioneer woman. a site we cooked dinner from last week
when i was in covington. it was freaking delicious. and it has pictures.
- food network. my most recent tv obsession aside from the olympics.
it has everything. and it's always good.
every time i go to baton rouge,
i get more and more excited about being there all the time.
my ability to be there without stephen by my side 24/7 is relieving.
i certainly had a fear that i'd be suffocating,
but as it were, i have plenty of friends there too.
and plenty of things to do.
st. albans just exudes "home church" to me.
i just feel it when i'm there. everyone's so great,
and they desire so much to make it a family.
it reminds me of how st. matthias used to be.
i can't wait to be involved there all the time.
and join the choir.
oddly enough, it's something i've been thinking about a lot lately.
just one of those weird things i'm really pumped about, along with
meeting people for lunch or coffee all the time.
and game nights. and the farmers' market. and whole foods.
and zoo trips. and trips to the capitol.
and the driving range. and to new orleans.
and covington. and highway 10.
and being at home.
luke.
something about girls having boys' names
always made me feel like i was in like flynn.
just a little tidbit.
so it's been forever since i've been on this thing,
and frankly, i don't even know where to begin.
hmm, some things that have happened since december that i can remember.
- christmas. the obvious.
- new years. also obvious.
- matt and rachel tied the knot. it was incredible. it still is.
- hired for one last summer at camp. so old.
- camp rendevous for vd. so great. still happening. still happy.
- san francisco. wow. san francisco definately happened.
- spring quarter began. which is key. it's so good.
- i turned 21. i still don't drink much. and it's still weird to be legal. mostly because i forget.
- skydived (skydove?) in a wind tunnel. so fun. i'm ready to go for real. in the fall.
- ben folds again. much better the first time but still awesome, of course.
- ACL lineup is out. i'm skeptical, but eager to improve my excitement.
- getting an accountability partner. got one.
i don't know what else to write.
i was way too ambitious in thinking i could just hop back on this train.
either way, i hope to be back soon.
and more often.
i've been really bummed out lately.
about everything.
i wasn't ready for this quarter to start.
i'm still burnt out from fall quarter,
and frankly,
i wasn't ready for spring quarter to end.
but it did.
and things are different.
and it was all ok until a few days ago.
i tend to be melodramatic when in emotional ruts like this one.
when i'm searching for feeling and i can't find it.
when i don't feel like i can connect to anything.
at least i know it's me being melodramatic,
and that this rut is incredibly temporary.
i'm sure it's just apathy. i know it is.
i want people and fun and a social life and good grades to come to me.
but i don't feel like any of it.
i don't listen to any of it.
i don't take advantage of any of it.
it's miserable and lame.
admittance helps i think.
i need a good cry to happen and some girl talk.
the girl talk is happening soon,
the cry always seems to come when it feels like it.
until then,
a smidge of pictures of people who makes me happy.