my grandma is going crackers...

and it runs in the family.
one day, i'll be crackers too.
and diabetic...but that's besides the point.

why is it that getting old is such an exciting milestone pre-21 and such a heartbreaking era post-senior citizen? my grandma feels like she can't function anymore, which worries me because she doesn't really function so well to begin with. but what confidence can you give to someone who doesn't know how to pump gas or didn't realize that her lamp and her television can turn on with the simple click of a button instead of a timer or can't do a thing in life without making a list first, and then losing it. ay carumba.

my favorite songs right now:

- hide and seek - imogen heap

- on call - kings of leon

- under pressure - david bowie and queen

- don't stop believin' - journey

- give it up - the format

for the first time in years, i'm single AND i like it. so much, even, that dating is not an option for me at the moment. i don't want it to be. mostly because my "milestones" have to fall into place before i'm willing to make some crazy changes in my life. milestones that include:
1. do well in school
2. graduate
3. move to Austin
4. find the first love of my life (a fat puppy which will be named figgs)
5. get a job i love, even if it's not what i want to do for the rest of my life
besides all that, i like caring about friends right now. a lot. and i wouldn't give them up for the world.

i'm making myself a dress. soon. and it's going to look like this. i hope.

i like having friends that i know will be important to me for the rest of my life.